A HUGE part of the reason I love what I do so much is that I get to hear and be a part of so many women’s stories. We’ve all got our own journey we’re on and when someone chooses ME out of the hundreds of choices they have in Orange County to be a part of THEIR journey, well…it’s truly an honor.
I don’t think I could explain in words how truly fortunate that I even have this gift and I get to share it with others. I am right where I need to be!
That being said, I met Alexandra when she booked our January boudoir weekend at the Avenue of the Arts Hotel in Costa Mesa- we realized we had a few mutual friends and I fell in love with her sweet personality instantly! She’s been through a lot like so many of us have and I was so excited that she was willing to share her photos and a little bit of her story with us, grab the tissues- she’s a warrior!
Nicole: Tell me about your journey- what have you been through?
Alexandra: Life has pretty tough, to be completely honest. My parents divorced when I was 2, and from there on it was mom, sister and me. My dad was around but more of a Disneyland dad, but he eventually came around. From there life got worse, I ended up being raped by 2 guys on one night when I was 12, lost my grandpa a month later and then found out I was pregnant, then to lose my dog a short while later. At that point in life I tried to commit suicide but I failed, that I’m thankful for. From there it’s pretty blurry and I don’t remember much but then I met Jeff. We actually hated each other but somehow that hate became love and 14 years later we’re still going strong. Everything was perfect Until we moved into our home and got engaged. Then my body decided to take revenge on me. If it wasn’t for my moms love and Jeff being there at the right time my life honestly wouldn’t be as “blessed” without them. I truly feel I don’t deserve all that I have.
Nicole: How has your relationship with your body changed over your life?
Alexandra: I used to be totally OK with my body and never really cared too much on how I looked until I got sick. December 9th, 2013 was the night my first flare happened and also the night I was to ask my friends to be my bridesmaids. It all started with arthritis and then I drastically lost weight. I LOVED the way I looked when I lost the 40+ lbs(in under 2 months) but looking back I look sickly. From there I was put on my current medications which ended up saving my life but also made me gain everything and more back. Since then I’ve hated everything about myself, my body that attacks itself, having to do infusions every 8 weeks, the unknown of being able to get/stay pregnant, to never knowing when I’ll have another flare but I’m slowly trying to changes this temple of doom into something I can be thankful for.
Nicole: What motivated you to book a boudoir session?
Alexandra: I want to learn to love myself in ways I never thought I could. I’m awkward as hell and have never considered myself a sexy person so to be able to have fun with it(even after having my infusion that morning and feeling so worn down) and feeling genuinely excited to see these pictures for the first time with Jeff makes me all happy again.
Nicole: How did your session make you feel? 🙂
Alexandra: Like I want to book so many more! I keep coming up with new ideas I’d want to do and want to make this a regular thing! I love the fact that I can(hopefully) see overtime that I’m more comfortable with myself and hopefully see my body change, but for the good this time around.
I mean…isn’t she beautiful?
To book YOUR session contact me today! We have interest free payment plans and the boudie bank- I can’t wait to be a part of YOUR journey! xoxo